pressure-less

It's funny how we can become so worked about things. Our world, our society is so good at convincing us that we must exhaust every minute and ultimately make exhaustion an idol. I seem to get caught up in the scheme of things from time to time and can't understand how to jump back out...then I surrender.

Jesus is so good. So forgiving and so welcoming. I get worked up thinking that whatever I do wrong God is disappointed in me and I am ashamed and feel guilty. That is our world and satan telling us that we are supposed to be perfect. Perfectionism and individualism are what our media demands...its hard to peel off the scales on our eyes and realize that these are not what God wants at all.

One of my all time favorite devotional books is My Utmost for His Highest by Oswald Chambers. For December 1st this is in the text:
                        "I must get rid of the underlying idea that I can ever be right with God because of my obedience. Who of us could ever obey God to absolute perfection!
                          Whenever God's will is in complete control,He removes all pressure. And when we deliberately choose to obey Him, He will reach to the remotest star and to the ends of the earth to assist us with all of His almighty power."

I want to live in God's will. I want to live in God's HIGHest will.

 Also in the text from November 28th
We can not earn or win anything from God through our own efforts. We must arrive at a place where we have the knowledge that we are destitute. Until we get there, our Lord is powerless. He can do nothing for us as long as we think we are sufficient in and of ourselves. We must enter into the kingdom through the door of destitution...When we are hungry spiritually then we may receive the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit takes that which is "beyond" us and places it "within"us. And immediately once "the beyond" has come "within", it rises up to "the above", and we are lifted into the kingdom where Jesus lives and reigns.(John 3:5)

Overwhelmed song lyrics:

I am nothing yet you bid me come to you oh Lord Almighty. As I come I'm overwhelmed with you. humbly now i break the silence as Im weeping in your presence I'm so wretched overwhelmed with you. Your blood of redemption is covering my shame. Your voice that shakes the heavens is whispering my name. As you catch my tears, in your nail scarred hands, I'm overwhelmed with You. I'm overwhelmed with You.

As my process for going abroad finalizes I start to feel...Realizing that the seniors I know and love won't be here next year is hard to grasp. I've only known Point Loma with the class above us. I've had those solid people in my life to look up to.It's going to be hard. I'm going to really miss them!